
"My heart is at peace."
These were the words left by aesthetician Kim Jin-young just before his death.
When I read that one sentence, printed so it stretched across the page, I couldn’t close the book for a while.
To be at peace. It sounds simple, yet it is very difficult. Even more so in times like these.
As we live our days, our hearts are constantly tossed about. Hope and anxiety, anger, impatience, regret. We struggle to keep our balance while being pulled by emotions we can’t fully control. That is why I was so strongly struck by how one might reach a state of mind at the end of life where one can say, “I am at peace.”
Kim Jin-young’s posthumous collection Morning Piano is a diary that traces the days from when he was diagnosed with cancer until his death.
It does not record only quiet acceptance. Confusion and sorrow, anger, an inability to let go. The emotions sway back and forth again and again, and each time they are written down as words.
And yet, as I kept reading, gradual change began to appear.
What started as long passages gradually became shorter. The style, which had felt essay-like, soon turned into fragments, and in the end only words like a few lines of poetry remained.
As if all the excess were being quietly pared away. As if the soul were quietly leaving the body. The words grew shorter little by little, losing their outlines as they sank deeper and deeper. That process was beautiful.
Perhaps people do not simply end all at once in a single moment. While remaining in the body, they slowly drift away. Their outlines gently unravel. Morning Piano recorded that quiet transition.
After closing the book, I found myself thinking.
At the end of life, what will I think about?
I don’t know the answer. But strangely enough, I thought that maybe it is unexpectedly the scenery of the present.
Casual conversations with family. The evening light streaming in through the studio window. The quiet breathing of a cat dozing on the living room sofa. A table with steam rising from it. The small days that slip by unnoticed amid the busyness.
Perhaps those are the things that, later on, we look back on and think, “Ah, that was enough.” Or perhaps we simply hope that we will be able to feel that way.
I still don’t know when that day will come. But I do find myself looking forward to it a little.






















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